Frenzied Feelings on Studying Abroad

OOh dear god.
I am in a foreign country for four months and I am freaking out. I just can't stop thinking about not being able to rely on my mom (i'm 20, i should get over it) and how I feel like I dont realy know who I am and maybe I should't have come to a foreign country without knowing that. I suppose I'm still figuring it out and I'm just nervous because it's my first day here. I'm all alone with my danish roommate--who is really nice, but its not like another American student. I think things will be much better when I've made friends and when school is keeping me busy. The unfamiliarity is just so daunting. I have to figure all of this out on my own. I think for some strange reason I was in slight denial about all of this. I was just like--I'll figure it out when I get there. I wish I had mentally prepared myself for being alone, but I dont know if that was really possible. The newness of everything is so overwhelming. I'm exhausted and feel nauseous and really can't wait for tomorrow when orientation will be going on and I'll have a better grasp on things. My computer is going to die soon because I dont have the right adapter. I also think that I had such a great summer in Rochester, where everything is familiar that this transition is particularly rough. Hopefully my next post will be a more cheery one, one filled with insights into danish culture and tales of the city. I just need to stop overanalyzing and take things one step at a time. And also remind myself that I'm a smart and capable person. I can manage all of this and be without my mom, it'll just take a little work.